Once Again!

My ex is once again all over me, telling me how sorry he is and how much he wants me to wait for him, because he really likes my ex-friend and he likes me too, but he just wants to have some fun! Really? I am truly sick of being played! I'M THROUGH WITH THIS!

Friends Who Count!

I have a friend who's name is Brion! He is like really awesome! He tried to warn me about my now ex-boyfriend! I didn't listen to him because I knew that he liked me and I thought that he only wanted me to break up with him to date him. So I wouldn't talk to him for a couple days and everything he told me came true! I felt like a jerk! I knew something was wrong about my ex, but I didn't want to hear it from anybody else! I did apoligize to Brion, because he was just being a good friend! He supported me when my ex hurt me and when I just wanted to give up, he was there! I am really sorry I did that to him, because he was and still is a friend who counts! Also, my friend Tyra tried to warn me about my ex and I just refused to listen to her too! I love all of my friends and when they were trying to be there, I treated them like crap! My bestfriend, Mariah, told me that I shouldn't get my hopes too high about him, but I didn't care, I wanted to be happy for once and just be loved! I want to apoligize to all of my friends for not listening and being a jerk! I LOVE YOU GUYS! YOU ALL ARE FRIENDS WHO COUNT!

People Who are "Supposedly" Your Friends!

Every time I look around my friend, Monique, is all over my boyfriend. Yes I just wrote about how great he is yesterday, but as I wrote that post, he was at a trip with her, kissing her and feeling all on her. I found this out through my bestfriend,Tyra, who was also at the trip. She had no idea we were together, that's because I hadn't seen her in a while to tell her. She said if she would have known that we were together, she would have set them both straight! Now, I trusted them to go on that trip and not do that crap, but it's really all of my fault, because I knew they liked eachother and I knew it wouldn't be long before they did something! But her being my close friend and him being my boyfriend, I truly thought I could trust them! Of course, when I found out, I cried, then my real friends helped me up, last, I tried to kill Monique and my boyfriend! I went off on Mo after school and him also! Nobody likes Mo because she is a little slut! Every guy talks about her and I use to call myself sticking up for her! I cannot believe she would betray our friendship like that! God only knows! So then,he breaks up with me saying "Oh, I love Mo, she's the one for me, and we were made for eachother." Oooo! God only knows how much strength it took me not to just knock him straight in his jaw! He also knows how much strength it took for me not to snatch her bald-headed! Well, I guess that's what I get for trusting people, right? If only I could learn from the past, because this isn't the first boyfriend of mine that she was sluting over! God knows that I'm trying so hard not to be mean, but I've truly had enough of her bull crap! Well, til' next time, bye!

My Birthday!

I just turned fifteen on December 12. I also was asked out by a boy named Devin the day after my birthday. He is very sweet, kind, loving, caring, considerate, he listens, and he respects me. We have a lot in common. It's not that easy to find someone like that these days! I have liked him since school started, but I thought he didn't even know that I existed. He means so much to me and I'm glad to have him! He's very honest and that's all I ask! If your honest, then that means you can be trusted. Don't worry, he is also fifteen, but he's a couple months older and he is in the ninth grade too. (Lol)! I LOVE YOU DEVIN! Also, my grandma bought me six thigh-high Tinker Bell socks, my friend William from church bought me a beautiful necklace, one of my aunts bought my earings and a necklace with my birthstone in them, and one cousin bought me a pair of Victoria'a Secret boody-shorts that say "I LOVE PINK" across the butt and front! And my boyfriend bought me a cute stuffed animal! THANKS YOU GUYS!

New Things!

There is this thing called Alluminati and my friend told me about it. She said Snoop Dog, P. Diddy, and someone else I can't remember, sold their soul to the devil to be famous! I mean, are they crazy? Bad question, they have to be crazy to do that! OMG! That's crazy mess. I know I haven't been on here in a while, but things have been going on! Also, I'm now in highschool. I attend Frank H. Peterson Academies of Technology. I'm taking up Culinary Arts. I'm having a lot of fun so far and I have a new boyfriend and his name is Devin. He's hot you guys! (Lol)! So it's almost winter break and I have these two big projects that I have to work on over the break! Well, atleast I'll be buisy! Well, I have to go! Til' next time, bye!

!Happy 4th Of July! "But Never Forget The True Meaning!"

I want everyone to have a great holiday, but I don't want you to forget why we really celebrate the 4th of July. Where I live, which is in Jacksonville, Florida, all of our Veterians are going and going quickly and not just one by one! A Veterian Memorial that was just built for our fallen hero's in 2009, is now filled with nearly 2,000 fallen Veterians! That is how quickly our people are leaving us! So I want you to all have a wonderful holiday, but please don't ever forget why that special day is there. If it were'nt for our people fighting for our freedom, we wouldn't have that day to relax! So remember to take some time out on the 4th of July to honor all of our fallen Veterians and the one's who are still out in the war risking their lives for us! So let us show them respect on that day, if we don't show it to them on any other day! HAPPY 4TH OF JULY EVERYONE!

I Say "Be Proud Of Who You Are!"

Never let the words of someone else get you down when all you want is to be up for once ! I have finally realized that the more I let people hurt me, the more they will be able to destroy me! Be proud of who you are, because there will never be another you. My friends have always told me how special I am, but you know your friends who are true friends only want your happiness, so I basically never really listened to them. When all along, they were right. I had to believe in myself if I wanted others to do the same. You have to look at the good in yourself! I always tell my sister "Niesy, if you want others to love you, I'm going to need you to love yourself. Stop looking at your faults and look at your qualities. Your so beautiful and graceful, but your always too worried about your looks and not your true, inner beauty!" My sister is so beautiful! She just worries too much about her size and weight, when she is the prettiest 15 year old I've ever seen! But I realized how I was being a hypocrite. I was helping her, yes, but I was giving her advice that I needed to take for myself also! That's why I say to be proud of yourslf and stop worrying about your faults and look at you for your qualities! I need to think about the good in my life and myself and stop focusing on all of the bad things!That's Why I say "Be Proud Of Who You Are!"