"If I Cry."

I don't understand why I always end up crying. I can't ever be happy and I can't seem to laugh or keep a smile on my face for too long! Nobody ever has believed in me the way I wish they did. Only I have the power to make myself happy? Well I find that hard to believe when everyone seems to have that power over me and more! I try not to let the words of people get to me. I am not someone who likes to fight and argue, that is why I think it is easy for my feelings to be destroyed. Everyone tells me that I'm a nobody and that I will always be a nobody. And after a long time of hearing those same words reiterated, I started to actually believe them. If I had a chance to be the one in control of my feelings, I would, because I can't stand the feeling of knowing that I can't even control my tears and pain! I need someone who can let me know that I mean something and not just tell me that just because they think I need to hear it or because it is so funny to them! HELP! I wish I had enough of it!