I Say "Be Proud Of Who You Are!"

Never let the words of someone else get you down when all you want is to be up for once ! I have finally realized that the more I let people hurt me, the more they will be able to destroy me! Be proud of who you are, because there will never be another you. My friends have always told me how special I am, but you know your friends who are true friends only want your happiness, so I basically never really listened to them. When all along, they were right. I had to believe in myself if I wanted others to do the same. You have to look at the good in yourself! I always tell my sister "Niesy, if you want others to love you, I'm going to need you to love yourself. Stop looking at your faults and look at your qualities. Your so beautiful and graceful, but your always too worried about your looks and not your true, inner beauty!" My sister is so beautiful! She just worries too much about her size and weight, when she is the prettiest 15 year old I've ever seen! But I realized how I was being a hypocrite. I was helping her, yes, but I was giving her advice that I needed to take for myself also! That's why I say to be proud of yourslf and stop worrying about your faults and look at you for your qualities! I need to think about the good in my life and myself and stop focusing on all of the bad things!That's Why I say "Be Proud Of Who You Are!"

"If I Cry."

I don't understand why I always end up crying. I can't ever be happy and I can't seem to laugh or keep a smile on my face for too long! Nobody ever has believed in me the way I wish they did. Only I have the power to make myself happy? Well I find that hard to believe when everyone seems to have that power over me and more! I try not to let the words of people get to me. I am not someone who likes to fight and argue, that is why I think it is easy for my feelings to be destroyed. Everyone tells me that I'm a nobody and that I will always be a nobody. And after a long time of hearing those same words reiterated, I started to actually believe them. If I had a chance to be the one in control of my feelings, I would, because I can't stand the feeling of knowing that I can't even control my tears and pain! I need someone who can let me know that I mean something and not just tell me that just because they think I need to hear it or because it is so funny to them! HELP! I wish I had enough of it!

!Always Her!

It's always her that makes you proud,
It's the truth... just say it aloud!
Never me, its all the time her,
You'll buy her jewl's and fancy winter fur!
It's always her, she's better than me,
It's always her that you only see.
She's the beauty, forget the beast,
I am nobody... I'll just head east.
You only reconize that she does best,
Give me nothing and she'll get the rest.
It's always her that you smile to,
You forget me, but I'll never forget you.
Why is it that you fail to see,
That you never remember me?
It's never me, but I know I'm sure,
That it's never me, but it's always her!

Pain

The pain is outragously great in my soul,
It rips me apart, one by one, and whole by whole.
Nobody could really feel pain so great,
The outside is evil and the inside? Pure HATE!
Pain so strong will make you weak,
Hurt you greatly and make you meak!
Think of the steps that are so near,
DON'T CLIMB THAT ONE! You have too much fear.
Grasp the handle of great pain's ladder,
Stand your base like a baseball batter.
So what is greater than the greatest pain?
Nothing more than the wind and stormy rain!