I'm Back!

Well it seems I've been gone for so long, but now I'm back! You all should know that I'm still in school and that I really have to concentrate! But anyway, I had the chance to meet my favorite poet! His name is Matthew Hernandez. I really like him, and don't tell anyone, but I love his smile!!! (lol) But really, he is great and I also met his two friends who are also a part of his poetry group, Mr. Eric Williams and Mr. Juwayne Walton. I learned a lot from all of them, they showed me that I have a gift and I meen something now and forever! When I read my poetry aloud to the class, I finally was able to see how much pain I was really in, but it took me to read what I wrote to understand what I meant and felt!
These three men literetly changed my life! I've always turned to reading and writing poetry for comfort, now I turn to reading, writing, and listening to poetry. What I meen is that, I never knew my friends were also having trouble in life and it took a lot for us all to really get up there and tell our stories. My friends and I always smile and laugh around eachother to try and hide whats real, not knowing that every one of us were going through something terrible! It truly hurts to see my friends so hurt, not knowing that they were giving me signs the whole time and I didnt even help! It seems that the poetry I'm ucustomed to is the depressing poetry, but I tell my pain day to day, that its not over, I'm going to win this fight and meeting Mr. Hernandez made me realize that I can't give up! AND I WONT!!!

!Grow Up!

This week has been so crazy! I mean its like everywhere I look its just a buch of drama! My friend Marshele was like "People fightin people over something the people could just let go!" And honestly, I understand her to the fullest! I mean, you got girls fightin over boys who dont even look to good! And then you got dudes fightin dudes over how one looked at another! I'm so aggitated at how immature people can be. In all, people are actin like the're two when the're actually twenty! I mean seriosly GROW UP!

Forever Essence:My Life and MORE

In Time

In time I'll find who I truly am,
I will find out what took me where,
In time myself will become my way,
I'll be me on that wonderful day,
In time my enemies will be my friends,
No matter what I am my end!

!Love in so many ways from so many people!

Whenever I see someone that I like, I try not to be shy because I want people to see my side that tells who I really am and I'm an outgoing, energetic, fun, funny, talkative, caring, loving person! If you dont believe me, you can get to know me personally and you'll see that I'm agreat individual! I have so many dreams that literetly scare me because they show me things of my past that I really dont want to remember! See I'm adopted and it doesnt really bother me(well that part atleast) and I really dont know my real mom to well and my real father? Well, lets just say I've never met him. Well anyway, the other night I had a dream about my real mom and my sisters, my brother and myself. We were in our kitchen and my real mom was talking to me and we were all walking around in the kitchen. I woke up like "Wow. Was that real?" I soon after realized that it was real, but it happened when I was really little, I cant even remember what age! I 'm very serious about the impression I make on people. In school, I dont goof off unless I'm in gym with my friends! My mother(the one who adopted my sister and I) always says to me or to other people "Kadazya always is reading or writing!" Kadazya is my real name. Then people will say, "Girl, you got a smart girl." then she'll say, "Dont I know it!" I dont brag, but have you ever just felt so good because you hear your mom say something good about you, but you never knew she noticed what you said or did? Well needless to say, thats how I felt! I love my mom and I'm so proud to have a mom like her!

THANKS

I want to say thank you to everyone who gave me those comments and it seems that you all are great people and I'm so proud to know that I actually hace people who like my writing! I'm writing a book and I'm already on my fourth chapter. Its NOT negative, but I just put my fealings into a story of a 15 yearold girl with natural feelings and problems! So I really want to know if my followers think I should put my book on my blog for you all to read.

Most of the time I don't know what to say because it doesn't seem to really matter. I try to be strong when people dis me like I don't mean anything!